if you have ever felt this way... feel free to copy this and add to ur place or w.e.... jush please make sure u say whea u got it fwom... ( leaves titles n author in ) im hur by jessica truong i used 2 be luvd by many n hated by few, buh 4 each day dat passes, i bcum les luvd, not hated mo, jush slowly outkasted, n 4gotten, all dat who luvd me, dun realize dat im hur, doze dat hab hunted n hated me, hab 4gotten dat im hur, n doze dat i hab cheerished so dear 2 my heart, hab 4gotten dat im hur, so ill tell u now, dat i will disappear, 2 a place whur im unknown, 2 find new ppl n a new home, whetha im 4gotten or remembered, ill always luv yall n always currr... writing by jessica truong my facial expressions hab no longer keep me going, my crucial remarks hab bcum remoresole, all dat ish left are my writings on da wall, da writing on this paper, and da writing in my head, only those who truly understand, look beyond the words in which they try to comprehend, between the lines of who i am, hidden beneath da shadows of every letter written... differences by jessica truong u r not an army of wun, but an army of many, u stand beside those with fame and riches, beside those with scholars and commissions, buh how u stand tall, is how u cum short, 4 we r the outkasted, the forgotten, the sicc, the poor, the geeks, the nerds, the losers, the wimps, r minds ponder each moment, plotting da day of our return, da return of who we once were, b4 u stepped foot n it, b4 u changed our lives, b4 u made us different, bcuzz of who we were, or how we lived, b4 u laughed at how we talked, or how we dressed, b4 u made ur first joke or prank upon us, u will pay 4 every remark, 4 every scar, and 4 every tear, 4 we a different, and we r proud... sacrifice by jessica truong in order to live, wun must give, in order 4 wun to smile, wun must cry, not knowin the price to be paid, jush to live anotha day, jush to take anotha step, jush to take anotha breath, jush to find the real u, jush to find da real me, to find true love, b4 heading below or above, 4 every new thing found, we must leave sumthing behind, not knowing wut it is, until u realize u dont hab it no mo... more 2 be written upon anotha day...

this response ish to the anonymous person in my c-box...

yesh it is true i crave the love, yesh it ish true i habnt gotten much ob it fwom my fwends or family, and yesh u r rite...

i do understand that i need to stop... because im not tryna to hurt n e one... and im not tryna get hurt either.. and i do tend to get lost in love a lot... and tend to find a lot of great pplz out there... they are all so interesting... all of them equal wun great person... buh i know that even tho im only 16... im more mature for my age... and i dont need to be playing all these kiddy games... buh danx fo wut u sed... ill be thinkin ob it.... (dont noe wut else to say)....

Jessica

well hmm... i wouldnt say that my life has been perfect lately... buh it sho n da hell feels like it... im currently dating mah baby Chanty Sammi Sok... I do LOVE him so MUCH... buh... b4 i met him... i met sumwun i was too wait for... and now i hab da chance to be with him... buh im with Chanty.... and i dont want to hurt him... i tried to break up with him(chanty)... buh i couldnt... i dont noe why... ive been dating him since.... july 6th.... it hasnt eben been a month yet... and wen i talk to the other person... i feel like imma fly away... i feel so connected with him... we have so much in common... and hes not immature... hes so swt and charming and gosh... hes such a dork too... and hes a great listener.... and very understanding... the first time i talked to him... was wen i had called his brother ah pheak... ah pheak had lots ob hys fwends dere and they was passin the phone around... and da first time i started talkin to him... he was jush so perfect... and i onlee wanted to talk to him... our first conversation... was so... sooo... i dont noe how to explain it buh... u noe how pplz say.... "do u believe n love at first sight"... well dys was sorta like dat... buh it was the more like... "i fell n love afta our first conversation"... its crazy... buh... now dat my heart ish split n 2 wayz... i dont noe wut to do... i mean... id love to be with HIM... buh im with CHANTY... and i LOVE being hys gurh... wut am i to do?!?!?!...  2 be continued anotha day